STOP...notice

I was supposed to work today. I made no plans of "things to do" because when I work all day I only want to hug and kiss the kids when I get home.....so I was ecstatic, pleased, joyful that I did not have to go to a meeting and waste my time, but I got to be home with my babies...the problem is...I made no plans.

It's hard to move from teacher mode, plans for whole groups, small groups, and those individual kids, goals for everyone, analyzing what they need most, all of the spheres interlocked and moving.....to quiet. The sound of the dryer, the hum of a computer, and maybe some wind...it's quite in the suburbs. My e-mail is checked, the kitchen has food, the dryer is doing the laundry. I have read 5 books in the last month so I think I'll take a break, the "to do" list is immense, the "want to do someday" is even bigger but....I made no plans.

The treadmill had been calling my name, cursing me when I sleep and laughing at me when I get dressed in the morning...but then I'd have to put on my shoes....My office is crying...papers are everywhere, coupons are expiring....but then I'd have to start a project I don't have time to finish which usually is worse than not starting at all.

My friend at work, Matt, always says I have a cheerful attitude, the I can do it word...I guess I save it for work. For the kids, so someone tells them they're awesome because when I get home, when I am the real me...I didn't make a plan.....so for today.....STOP...notice my peaceful, real life.